
Blue Jays ace Roy Halladay altered his typical postgame routine and met with the large pack of media that showed up on Friday night in an interview room outside the team's clubhouse after Toronto's 4-2 loss to Tampa Bay in 10 innings. After logging nine frames, Doc answered questions about his future with the club for 20 minutes.
Here are some of the highlights of the question-and-answer session:
On the crowd and the standing ovations:
"It was electric. It was a great atmosphere. It was fun to be in. I think you have those moments over your career where it's so much fun to be out there. Obviously, coming up on the wrong end of it, it's hard. It was electric. It was a fun place to be tonight."
On his thoughts walking off the mound in the ninth inning:
"How many pitches I had. You hate to come out of games like that. I really didn't know where I was at pitch-wise. That was the big thing. If I get a chance to go back out, can I? I didn't realize I was up that high in pitches, so I think at that point you're still kind of in game mode. You're not done."
On why he didn't tip his hat or answer a curtain call:
"You're always trying to keep yourself in the game. It's tough, especially in a tie game or something like that, to come out and do something like that. It's a tough situation. You have it in the back of your mind that you will go back out there. I really think that for me it was just trying to keep myself in the game and not anticipate it being over before it was."
On if he believes he'll be a Blue Jay come August:
"Right now, yeah, I think I will be here. It's obviously a complicated situation and I think for that reason I've never felt like there's been a big press on being moved or wanting to be moved. ... If there was an urgency to be somewhere else, and an urgency for the team to have me somewhere else, I think it'd be different. I just don't get that feeling. For that reason, I think that at this point I feel like I'm going to be here."
On being ready to have the matter resolved:
"From this aspect of it, yeah. It could be difficult if you do end up going somewhere. It's going to be hard. I think that from this part -- trying to speculate and answer questions -- I'm ready for that part to be over."
Asked if he told the Jays he planned on testing free agency:
"I don't think necessarily in those words. For me, I like being here. Whether we have a chance to win, next year or the year after, I don't know. I would hope so, but for me it was more I would like to wait and see. I don't feel like I want to test -- it has nothing to do with what I might get elsewhere. It has to do with I don't have a crystal ball. I don't know 100 percent what's going to lay in store here or somewhere else. For me, I feel like it's just something that I don't want to try and look that far in the future right now. I would rather assess the situation when my contract is up."
On talking to interim president and CEO Paul Beeston:
"I definitely feel like there's a plan in place. I feel like it's an organization that's trying to move forward. That it's trying to get better. From that aspect of it, I think there's a lot to look forward to here. I think for me, it's more of a wait-and-see. I know Paul's done a great job and I have a lot of confidence in J.P. The time that I've been here, he's done the best he can to put the best team out there. ... There's a lot to look forward to here. I just think I owe it to myself at this point to kind of wait and see and assess the situation when I have to. I do feel like there's a lot of positives here."
On going over a list of teams to which he'd approve a trade with the front office:
"They're aware of what I'm looking for -- that I want a chance to win, whether it be here or somewhere else. I think in certain cases, you do have to let them know what would be a possibility for you. Otherwise, you're wasting a lot of peoples' time. If something does work out, it's for the best for both sides. I think you definitely have to. If you are going to talk about it, there's certain places that maybe you would go and I think they need to know that. If not, you're kind of wasting your time. There have been a little bit of those talks, but I'd hate to go too far in-depth."
Asked if he thinks the Jays need "major changes" to contend:
"Major changes? No. I think the hardest part is obviously the division we're in. The two, three, four teams that you're up against -- two of them being able to go out and get guys when they need them -- I think that's the hardest part. I don't think that there's major changes. I think at some point you have to catch lightning in a bottle and a lot of things have to go right -- kind of like what happened for Tampa last year. I think a lot of those pieces are in place. A lot of the future is there. It's just a matter of, when will that happen and when will it all come together? I personally don't believe that there's major changes. I think things are headed in the right direction."
On how frustrating has it been not to win with the Blue Jays.
"I think any player would say that the longer you go without having that chance, the harder it is, especiall late in your career. Earlier in your career, you're establishing yourself -- there's a lot of different things going on. I think the longer you play, the more winning becomes a priority, so it is hard. It's tough. But I think you ask every single one of those guys in the clubhouse who've been here for a long period of time, I think they'll tell you the same thing. I think that everybody has that desire. It's just a matter of having it come to fruition."
On the whole trade rumor situation:
"Obviously, I think a lot of it probably has to do with the fact that I told them I would like to wait until my contract's up to make the best decision. That probably plays into it. But as soon as they say, 'We're interested in maybe seeing what's out there' and 'Are you interested?', I think at that point there has to be a little bit, 'Well, if this is what you're looking for, this is what I'm looking for?' And basically that's all it is. I don't think at that point you sit down and give them a list of six teams you want to go to. But I think for me it was important to make clear what I wanted to accomplish and where I was coming from. And I think that part of it's important. As far as nailing down specifics, at that point, no, that didn't happen."
Asked if he's heard from players on other teams:
"A little bit, but more jokingly I think. Obviously it's kind of taken on a little bit of its own character. ... But I don't feel like I've been sold by anybody. It's not a sales pitch, it's more 'Hey, how's everything going? How are you doing with this? What do you think about playing here?' So there haven't been sales pitches."
On possibly signing an extension this coming offseason:
"I think it would be tough on me. Again, it's not that I want to go somewhere else, or I want to play somewhere else, but I really feel like I've fulfilled a lot of obligations, and I think at some point you have to be a little bit selfish in what you want. I think that I've kind of gotten to the point where I can right now. I can make that decision at that point and go with what I think is best. It's purely based on having a chance to win. It really is. I love it here, I want to stay, and I really do hope it's here. But I think for me, I've taken care of a lot of things and I fel like I would hate to look back and regret that I had this three- or four-year window and I didn't take a chance to give myself the best opportunity, and that's really all I'm trying to do, whether it's here or somewhere else."
--JB